ruminating

is the word of the day.

ru·mi·nate

ˈro͞oməˌnāt/

verb

1. 1.

   think deeply about something.

   "we sat ruminating on the nature of existence"

   synonyms:

   think about, contemplate, consider, meditate on, muse on, mull over, ponder on/over,deliberate about/on, chew on, puzzle over;  formalcogitate about "we ruminated on the nature of existence"

2. 2.

   (of a ruminant) chew the cud.

   synonyms:

   think about, contemplate, consider, meditate on, muse on, mull over, ponder on/over,deliberate about/on, chew on, puzzle over;  formalcogitate about "we ruminated on the nature of existence"

Dear

Dear Rivera,

Happy Birthday. You are 29 now.
You'll be 30 in a year.
You should get your shit together. Strive for financial security.
Don't be lazy. Take control of your life.
You are an artist and designer.
Where is your portfolio?
Create one.
With volumes. of zines.
Do it.
Go.
Now.

Sincerely,
Rivera